“All that I need is this moment. To send me away with a smile on my face…”

Each day, we all do it. We all go on in total disregard for how lucky each one of us are for the life we have been given. There is no price tag that can be put on living and being healthy. What saddens me most is the people whom are consumed by greed and fail to uphold the basic values of life. What is humanity? Aren’t we much of the same?So many people fail to realize how lucky they are.

This entry is a response to some news a friend told me. Last night he confided in me about a debilitating disease he inherited genetically. There is no cure. At first, I was a bit confused on why he told me and I asked him today why? He said “Because you’re a friend whom has medical knowledge and you’re somebody I can count on to talk to and help emotionally. You’re somebody whom would understand the severity and be able to sympathize because most people don’t or can’t”. From the moment he said that to me I broke down into tears. Very similar to how rain dances in the beginning stages of a unexpected summer storm in a field on a hot day. I knew from all my previous studies and medical background that he was going to die. I wanted to tell him not to worry and not to be scared but how could I say that? I had no clue what he was facing. The thought of my any mother burying their child is an indescribable and such a heartfelt task that nobody can say anything relative to feelings or emotions in a comforting manor. The only thing I knew to say is ” I will always be here for you. 1 mile or 10,000 miles away. I want to come visit you soon… We don’t even have to talk about it unless you want to. We can go to dinner and take the ferry somewhere fun away from life. I promise you to come see you soon. I get away from life often. I can show you how much fun it can be to let go and forget about everything besides right now. That moment.”

So today as I look out my window, I cannot help but think of you. The sky is gray and the rain is falling. The temperature is 56 degrees and falling. I am crying yet again but I have a smile on my face. I don’t believe I will ever cry in front of you because I know you’re scared. I know it’s not fair. I know that it’s going to hurt and you feel all alone. But I want you to know this. Know this if anything that i’m smiling because you have me and I promise to be there for you. I promise from the bottom of my heart that I WILL make you smile when I see you soon. For this I promise you, for it is all I can do. I wish I could do so much more and be the answers and cure that you seek.

Everyone else, take a step back now. Call your parents, siblings, boyfriends, girlfriends, friends, even co-workers and tell them how thankful you are to have them in your life. Tell your close relatives and family how much you love them. In regards to the holidays? Keep remembering how lucky you are to be alive, healthy, and well. Remember that money is paper and that happiness comes from within. Remember how great it is to give than get and that while everything else can be replaced, you however cannot.

((this one is my favorite by the way. It’s known as the Shepherds Prayer. I know it by heart and you may find it comforting to know and just say to yourself at times.))

Psalm 23:

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul. He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake.

4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

You’re in my thoughts and prayers.